Trust only yourself and no one else.. Sad truth! 

No no no, I am not being nice to anyone! I don’t want to either, I have had it enough! I am to sly about everything. I hate being the way I am, too nice to the people who are just strangers. So I guess you all can guess I had such a big big horrible day! My day has been everything else but pleasant, and this time it was not the customers who caused it but my supposedly superior who just shocked me off, blew me out and trampled on my already soft heart! 

What I think of people is exactly not what people turned out to be and time and again I have been hurt, messed with and destroyed and yet I still try to be nice to all those fuckers who deserve nothing but a cold face! 

So my day, he ruined it, saw me cry, made me despair, n had the joy watching me wilt out like a old flower, he told me I have no choice but to leave, of course I did not want that for me, as I was really looking forward to the new job in the new campaign and I’m still there asking for a option they could give me. And the reasons they give out, because my attendance is not great as I have got a sick daughter at home. And how are the rest of them able to manage? God knows! Simple reasons that can really be manipulated with and cause eruptions. Honestly I am so over it now after having it for one whole long day. I’m just going to start over again. I need to. I can’t do this anymore. If they can give me what I requested I more than happy and willing to work hard and move on and if not I am just going to have to leave. I have had it enough. I don’t want to cause myself a mental illness through something which isn’t even my fault. Because not everyone is perfect and no one can be either, we all have problems in our lives and there are huge mountains to cross and break through. I won’t let something so minor effect my life and destroy it! I am going to set it right and never go wrong with my beliefs. 

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Trust only yourself and no one else.. Sad truth! 

No no no, I am not being nice to anyone! I don’t want to either, I have had it enough! I am to sly about everything. I hate being the way I am, too nice to the people who are just strangers. So I guess you all can guess I had such a big big horrible day! My day has been everything else but pleasant, and this time it was not the customers who caused it but my supposedly superior who just shocked me off, blew me out and trampled on my already soft heart! 

What I think of people is exactly not what people turned out to be and time and again I have been hurt, messed with and destroyed and yet I still try to be nice to all those fuckers who deserve nothing but a cold face! 

So my day, he ruined it, saw me cry, made me despair, n had the joy watching me wilt out like a old flower, he told me I have no choice but to leave, of course I did not want that for me, as I was really looking forward to the new job in the new campaign and I’m still there asking for a option they could give me. And the reasons they give out, because my attendance is not great as I have got a sick daughter at home. And how are the rest of them able to manage? God knows! Simple reasons that can really be manipulated with and cause eruptions. Honestly I am so over it now after having it for one whole long day. I’m just going to start over again. I need to. I can’t do this anymore. If they can give me what I requested I more than happy and willing to work hard and move on and if not I am just going to have to leave. I have had it enough. I don’t want to cause myself a mental illness through something which isn’t even my fault. Because not everyone is perfect and no one can be either, we all have problems in our lives and there are huge mountains to cross and break through. I won’t let something so minor effect my life and destroy it! I am going to set it right and never go wrong with my beliefs. 

Should I stay or should I go? 

Hey Readers, yet another opportunity to write and share my thoughts as I move toward home base on an underground metro for another agonizing 30 minutes. Ok let’s put it this way, my day was great until I had to leave my little princess to go to work on a late shift which ends at 10pm 😦 I simply hate it! Otherwise my day has been amazing! I had my daughter to me the whole day like before, I miss those good old times and though I cringe and wish for them to come back forever I know it never is going to be that way ever again but today was one of those days I love. I spent ample amount of time with my daughter, managed to take her by bus and metro without having to use a trolley and gosh the excitement she had in her eyes, those are the moments I love to capture into my soul for the rest of my life, she has grown so big, she is going to be two years in two months time and damn the time passed so quickly I hardly ever realized she does everything I once wished 🙂 I know I am a bit of a happy mother though I don’t try to talk about it too much these days. 

Anyway, my job has been great so far but (there is always a but in a job) 😉 don’t tell me I am not right. So yeah, the but that is bothering me and has become a pain in the downside is that I am really unable to do the shifts that I carry right now. Giving me less and no time to actually spend it on my self and my family. Being a family person I prefer to have a job where I don’t have to give in all my 200% effort and make time for my family as that is an important aspect of life. You can loose a job and find one but where on earth am I going to get a new family! Nah right? So I spoke to my manager , almost in tears , darn did I had to show my emotional side to my cute looking boss, to whom I stumble a lot when I speak to him, oh man the eye contact has been bit of a concern now, I try not to lower my eyes to his eyes when I speak to him, wonder if that is because I think he is cute or because he is my boss! Lol, never mind! I will never figure that one out! So yeah back to the point I made, I asked him for a part time and it was all agreed THREE weeks ago that he would let me start with a new campaign in a week and now it has been three weeks and I am still doing the same thing which I dislike. Honestly, I am not sure if I can handle it one more week, I am going to be patient and wait till the month ends and then ask him one last time before I make that final move. So now, should I stay or should I go? Is what I ask myself everyday when I leave to office each day ! 

I love the job and hope they give me what I want so I can do my part and get this moved with! 

Alright peeps! Thanks for stopping by and reading yet another miserable day’s story. Until next time! 

Happy reading! 

My first letter to my daughter! 

I always wanted to start writing to you. To buy a box and write letters and store them in the cabinet so when you turn 16 I could let you read all of them. I wanted to start writing to you on your first birthday. But hey there is never a auspicious time! 

You have turned 20 months already! How time flies away! It seemed like just yesterday when you were born and how I held you in my arms for a long long time. I still recall the fresh smell from your newborn skin. You were so tiny. 

Now that you are 20 months, I am no longer able to hold you like I once did because you are all grown up. You are a toddler and with no comparison to any. Every time you take a new leap in your growth I am the most happiest! There were times when I wanted you to walk, eat, talk and now you do all of that with such perfection. I enjoy you with all my heart. You are the most loved in my life. 

You are my life changing experience. How I love you so unconditionally without having to think twice. How au naturale! I enjoy every bit of time I spend with you. Playing with your toys, taking you to park, seeing you communicate in your baby language to the other kids, how you say hello to every passer by while we do our evening strolls, how you enjoy our food time, bathing is always fun? Isn’t it? And the after bath is the like having to catch you while you run away, or either try eating your bum cream, or licking your hands off the body lotion! And dressing up is like dressing a doll. I take immense pleasure in dressing you and the moment you run to the mirror to have a look at how you look. And pull out your tied rubber bands from your hair so I gotta redo it all over again! You are such a wonderful little girl. Still my adorable little girl and no one can ever change that! Forever! 

There are still so many new experiences that will come your way. New challenges that you would face! And I’m here with you, to walk hand in hand. To help you achieve your goals further, to lift you up when you fall, to laugh with you when your happy and make you stay strong in your sorrows. I will always be your guardian angel. Guiding you, helping you, showing you the light! 

Always remember mommy loves you the most and will do anything to see you brighten up! Looking forward to a very long journey in our life!

Stay blessed my darling daughter! 

Top 5 reasons why a Toddler mom should not get Inked!

Tattoos can be so great to look at and you feel you dedicated a part of your skin for such a tremendous piece of art work. so, I got 2 small tattoos for significance to my relationship as a mother and a wife. I dedicated one to my little toddler with her heartbeat engrossed onto my side arm and the other dedicated to my husband on the nape of my neck. both look perfect, exactly the way i want it to be. but Alas, there is a negative side to not getting a tattoo with a toddler by your side. so here are my reasons and you are most welcome to share your reasons too :

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Reason 1: Clinging Toddler

One can only imagine how scratchy and itchy a tattoo can get as it gets aged. though i cannot compare it with wine.Tattoo can be terribly itchy and you feel like you want to get those fingers off yours to work on your tattoos to release the itchiness. however imagine, a toddler who wants to sit on your lap all day long and does not want to move an inch from you. then , you might definitely want to reconsider your choice for that year. The little attention seeker!

Reason 2: Bath time

ok, you just apply a fresh coat of cream on the tattoo and then you remember its the bath time for your baby. how much ever you try not to wet the tattoo and tada! thanks to your toddler, she knows exactly what you think in your head and does quite the opposite. and you get twice the work you already got.

Reason 3: Chores chores and never ending chores

Chores are fun but not when you got a toddler. and definitely not when you want to finish off the dishes but your hand can not move much as your afraid the ink might move around as you have to strain the hand. Fresh tattoos need a lot of care and attention just like a new born. trust me you don’t want to move that tattoo skin too much around otherwise you might have to do a second sitting with that all pain!

Reason 4: Food can get messy

Feeding your toddler with the tattooed arm can be bit of a tricky session. they want to roatate their heads hands and legs as they please as they sing and dance to their rhymes while they eat. otherwise you can not get them to eat and you have twice the mess once the rhymes are turned off. ka boom! explosion time for a toddler. now you do not want a crying toddler at home with all that existing pain already! do you?

Reason 5: Sleep time.

Ever watched a Youtube video of how a toddler sleeps? you might want to go check that one out. with their super tactics of sleeping positions, all you have to think of is to how to protect your tattoo from not rubbing away.

So, with the top five reasons, I am really trying to not have a redo session of my tattoo. you got any? I would appreciate your share!

Hope you enjoyed the read!