Trust only yourself and no one else.. Sad truth! 

No no no, I am not being nice to anyone! I don’t want to either, I have had it enough! I am to sly about everything. I hate being the way I am, too nice to the people who are just strangers. So I guess you all can guess I had such a big big horrible day! My day has been everything else but pleasant, and this time it was not the customers who caused it but my supposedly superior who just shocked me off, blew me out and trampled on my already soft heart! 

What I think of people is exactly not what people turned out to be and time and again I have been hurt, messed with and destroyed and yet I still try to be nice to all those fuckers who deserve nothing but a cold face! 

So my day, he ruined it, saw me cry, made me despair, n had the joy watching me wilt out like a old flower, he told me I have no choice but to leave, of course I did not want that for me, as I was really looking forward to the new job in the new campaign and I’m still there asking for a option they could give me. And the reasons they give out, because my attendance is not great as I have got a sick daughter at home. And how are the rest of them able to manage? God knows! Simple reasons that can really be manipulated with and cause eruptions. Honestly I am so over it now after having it for one whole long day. I’m just going to start over again. I need to. I can’t do this anymore. If they can give me what I requested I more than happy and willing to work hard and move on and if not I am just going to have to leave. I have had it enough. I don’t want to cause myself a mental illness through something which isn’t even my fault. Because not everyone is perfect and no one can be either, we all have problems in our lives and there are huge mountains to cross and break through. I won’t let something so minor effect my life and destroy it! I am going to set it right and never go wrong with my beliefs. 

Trust only yourself and no one else.. Sad truth! 

No no no, I am not being nice to anyone! I don’t want to either, I have had it enough! I am to sly about everything. I hate being the way I am, too nice to the people who are just strangers. So I guess you all can guess I had such a big big horrible day! My day has been everything else but pleasant, and this time it was not the customers who caused it but my supposedly superior who just shocked me off, blew me out and trampled on my already soft heart! 

What I think of people is exactly not what people turned out to be and time and again I have been hurt, messed with and destroyed and yet I still try to be nice to all those fuckers who deserve nothing but a cold face! 

So my day, he ruined it, saw me cry, made me despair, n had the joy watching me wilt out like a old flower, he told me I have no choice but to leave, of course I did not want that for me, as I was really looking forward to the new job in the new campaign and I’m still there asking for a option they could give me. And the reasons they give out, because my attendance is not great as I have got a sick daughter at home. And how are the rest of them able to manage? God knows! Simple reasons that can really be manipulated with and cause eruptions. Honestly I am so over it now after having it for one whole long day. I’m just going to start over again. I need to. I can’t do this anymore. If they can give me what I requested I more than happy and willing to work hard and move on and if not I am just going to have to leave. I have had it enough. I don’t want to cause myself a mental illness through something which isn’t even my fault. Because not everyone is perfect and no one can be either, we all have problems in our lives and there are huge mountains to cross and break through. I won’t let something so minor effect my life and destroy it! I am going to set it right and never go wrong with my beliefs. 

Should I stay or should I go? 

Hey Readers, yet another opportunity to write and share my thoughts as I move toward home base on an underground metro for another agonizing 30 minutes. Ok let’s put it this way, my day was great until I had to leave my little princess to go to work on a late shift which ends at 10pm 😦 I simply hate it! Otherwise my day has been amazing! I had my daughter to me the whole day like before, I miss those good old times and though I cringe and wish for them to come back forever I know it never is going to be that way ever again but today was one of those days I love. I spent ample amount of time with my daughter, managed to take her by bus and metro without having to use a trolley and gosh the excitement she had in her eyes, those are the moments I love to capture into my soul for the rest of my life, she has grown so big, she is going to be two years in two months time and damn the time passed so quickly I hardly ever realized she does everything I once wished 🙂 I know I am a bit of a happy mother though I don’t try to talk about it too much these days. 

Anyway, my job has been great so far but (there is always a but in a job) 😉 don’t tell me I am not right. So yeah, the but that is bothering me and has become a pain in the downside is that I am really unable to do the shifts that I carry right now. Giving me less and no time to actually spend it on my self and my family. Being a family person I prefer to have a job where I don’t have to give in all my 200% effort and make time for my family as that is an important aspect of life. You can loose a job and find one but where on earth am I going to get a new family! Nah right? So I spoke to my manager , almost in tears , darn did I had to show my emotional side to my cute looking boss, to whom I stumble a lot when I speak to him, oh man the eye contact has been bit of a concern now, I try not to lower my eyes to his eyes when I speak to him, wonder if that is because I think he is cute or because he is my boss! Lol, never mind! I will never figure that one out! So yeah back to the point I made, I asked him for a part time and it was all agreed THREE weeks ago that he would let me start with a new campaign in a week and now it has been three weeks and I am still doing the same thing which I dislike. Honestly, I am not sure if I can handle it one more week, I am going to be patient and wait till the month ends and then ask him one last time before I make that final move. So now, should I stay or should I go? Is what I ask myself everyday when I leave to office each day ! 

I love the job and hope they give me what I want so I can do my part and get this moved with! 

Alright peeps! Thanks for stopping by and reading yet another miserable day’s story. Until next time! 

Happy reading! 

long long day

Today has been literally a very long day, woke up really early, at 7 in the morning. Readied my daughter to her very first school experience that she would ever get, packed her, nappies, wet wipes, her pink water bottle, one pair of dress, one white muslin cloth, some short eat, her favourite ‘BRUMIK’ short cake. packed it all in her new pink backpack that we bought at the mall yesterday. my partner bought himself some nice trekking shoes which i already bought when I first got to Czech Republic. His shoes looked just as classic as mine with the most popular ‘Gortex’. Honestly today had been a very big emotional roller coaster for me. my 21 month old daughter is in Kindergarden and she was such a good girl, the teacher was so convinced that she can be great at the tiny place filled with kids.

when I entered the baby house, they were kids running around, a baby girl crying as her mother left, my kid just streamed in and started exploring her way around, I am sure she had her first day a quite memorable one, I also saw there was a beautiful kitchenette at one corner, hanger bags with names of each kid at the entrance, rooms for taking rest above the play house, a not so big place for playing, reading, exploring the artistic side of my little one, and there was a huge garden with toys and slides and all the outdoor play toys needed for kids to get engaged. My little princess was so excited she forgot about mama and papa.

Later that day, we picked up my partner’s kids from their first day at school as it is the starting of the winter semester after a two month holiday, the girls have grown so big they have become so responsible and attentive. they wore beautiful dresses with combed hair, nice pair of shoes, I in fact missed hanging out with them as much as before because of my work, all I remember doing this summer with them was singing baby rhymes in the car to make the little sister of their’s happy and excited. 🙂

having said that, I still had to go to office at 11:30 am, which means my schedule begins to work one hour ahead of my scheduled shift. I got to take a bus and then a underground to reach work, like usual yesterday I did the same, except I got a lift from my partner to the underground metro in his car. I reach five minutes late to my desk, log in to my computer late and then still huffing and puffing I take my first call and since then it was a never ending, non-stop calls pouring in one after another. I was trembling with anxiety and stress as by the day approached to the end, I took a 17 disconnects and just 6 saves. It broke my heart completely. I was so stressed by the end, when I reached home I could not help assist my partner in taking care of my daughter and eventually he was disappointed but the best thing that happened over this whole long day we made up the next morning as we know no matter what love prevails in our lives.

Keep your love alive.

Happy Reading!